Prayer of Thomas Merton
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and will never leave me to face my perils alone.
this prayer beautifully describes where i'm at right now. i don't know where i'm going, and my relationship with God feels dead, but i do feel that desire. and i pray that that is enough to lead me through this dry and desolate place. it is a heartbeat. and for that i am thankful today.
this prayer beautifully describes where i'm at right now. i don't know where i'm going, and my relationship with God feels dead, but i do feel that desire. and i pray that that is enough to lead me through this dry and desolate place. it is a heartbeat. and for that i am thankful today.
posted by xblairx @ 10:28 AM
2 Comments:
At 11:37 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Thank you dear son, for always sharing your heart, for being true and honest, for always seeking to share your self! I love you! Keep desiring, it will lead you through! Mom
At 11:54 AM ,
Anonymous said...
We(the church) often talk about the "wilderness" as the place where God is most able to work because we cannot do it on our own, and I definitely believe its true. But it's easy to talk about the wilderness when we are not in it and maybe almost romanticize it a bit(at least that's what I tend to do).
Truth is, it really sucks when you are in the middle of it, when you feel lost, dry, like God is not there, like maybe you don't know if you even want God there, or at least to still follow Him in that place.
So, all I can offer is to keep walking, keep looking, keep struggling, even though it is hard and can feel like it's gone on way too long. Keep being honest and open. He's there, and we are there with you as well.
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